And then, fast forward again to now, I’m stuck with just the unknown, and the medical system has just been so difficult to work with and I’ve been shunned so many times whenever I’ve brought up that all my problems feel like they are COVID-related or vaccine related. I’ve had doctors literally walk out from the room on me. I remember I was at an eye doctor, getting my eyes checked because my vision feels like it’s not up to where it used to be. I’ve had basically consistent eye floaters since day one with this and visual disturbances, I would say. Something that I can describe as visual noise in my vision, kind of like TV static, and I’ve been to a couple of eye doctors and the first eye doctor I went to, I remember when he checked my eyes, he was like, ‘yeah, everything is good. Nothing out of the ordinary. Your optic nerve is fine. Everything else looks fine within your eye. No euvitis or anything like that. No inflammation of the optic nerve, which I was worried and concerned about. Then I remember at the end I was like, ‘have you seen anybody, I think I told them, COVID-related issues with the eyes complaining about blurry vision, eye floaters, anything like this?’ His literal words out of his mouth were ‘Nope, I haven’t seen anything like that’ and then just gets up and walks out of the room, doesn’t even say goodbye, have a good day. Doesn’t even say anything. Just gets up, and walks out of the room. Like even the assistant that was there was like, looked like she was even like ‘okay’ and then I just got up and walked out as well too, like, what am I going to do at that point? Like he doesn’t even want to stay there and listen to what I have to say at all, and at that point I knew I was like I have no help from the medical system and I was just on my own. And it feels like that still now, because I’ve had probably two doctors that I’ve really kind of been concerned I would say and actually have listened to me and ironically that doctor has been a podiatrist. Out of all the doctors, of all the doctors that you would think that are more serious, like, don’t get me wrong – podiatrists are amazing at what they do. The thing is like a neurologist, a rheumatologist- that are much more serious conditions, it seems like they’re just more like they are in the unknown as well with all this.
I can’t even blame the medical system at some times because they have no clue of what exactly is going on with the phenomenon that I’m experiencing and the problem that I’m going through and other people that like me are going through because the whole process—I’ve been just seeing personal stories of other people that have been going through literal similar word-for-word scenarios that I’ve gone through with everything. All the symptoms that I’ve had. The amount of doctor visits. They’ve basically gone through to basically rule out so many different diseases and problems that they thought that I had with all of this. And the thing is the waiting game is probably the worst and then the unknown with all this and the stress that I’ve gone through and the mental and physical anguish has just been nothing like I’ve experienced ever in my life and it’s just been too stressful.
And for everybody out there that’s been going through everything, you’re not crazy. You’re not psychotic. It’s definitely real because I’ve had doctors tell me to my face that all the problems I’m going through are real. They’ve seen the fasciculations in person. I’ve had the doctors see them in person. They’ve had the culmination of my medical history. Now with all my tests and they are as perplexed as I am at this point.”