“And now again fast forward again to my current situation, as I put this video out. What month are we? Sometimes I get confused even when it comes to the month we’re in. We’re in May so when I put this video out, it’s May 2nd and I still have no prognosis or diagnosis of my situation.
I’ve been dealing with the immense amount of joint pain and body pain, body aches, the nerve pain, the neuropathy, the muscle twitching, the fasciculations, the vision problems, and everything has been kind of consistent through this whole ordeal for the past four years. I haven’t had anything really, really scary happen like, you know, God forbid, you know through this whole problem where I’ve had seizures, I’ve had anything like passing out, anything very, very life-threatening. I haven’t had through this, thank God, I would say. But now I’m at a point where I’ve almost hit my breaking point because it’s like I’ve been going through this unknown disease or whatever it is. If it’s been overlooked and I have something, who knows? Like something just regular, right, that’s been overlooked and missed by all these doctors and they’ve completely not have done the right tests and I haven’t pinpointed exactly what it is, exactly, what my scenario is.
And it’s happened too many times to other people and personal people that I know as well with the medical system. And now I have an appointment with a doctor that specializes in—he’s in in Covid Long Hauler clinic in NYU and he specialises in infectious diseases and I feel like at this point, if he doesn’t know what I’m going through, or what it is I have, I have really no more hope left at that point because that’s like the last resort doctor I feel that I’m seeing that I would have some answers, I would assume, because he works with other doctors that you could think of—every single type—whether it’s rheumatologists, neurologists, digestive doctors, general practitioners. It’s a whole network of doctors basically, and he’s the head of the infectious diseases in NYU, I believe or one of the doctors that is in the forefront of it and I’m assuming he’s probably seen the abnormal I would say, during the whole covid process. He’s probably seen everything, from severe to the lighter cases to the in between, I would assume, right? That’s what I am hoping for, so I still have some hope left and my appointment is about a month and a half away.
Obviously, with the way the medical system has been, man, it’s just like you’re stuck suffering for like, you know, you have so many problems, and when you go and see a specialist or a doctor, I understand there’s countless, hundreds or thousands of people waiting to see the same doctor, and I understand, but it’s like you’re stuck just with the waiting game, and then, like, the worst part has been for me, the unknown with the waiting game combined, for me, waiting to get seen, waiting to get some answers, and the whole process has just been….I don’t know how I’ve been dealing with it, honestly, guys. But I don’t wish this upon anybody and I hope this video has helped a little bit for people that have been going through the same scenario. I hope, because I know there’s other people out there from what I’ve seen and what I’ve read, personal stories—very descriptive personal stories of people going through this, even celebrities as well. Even YouTube content creators have gone through this.
I, 100% believe Covid is the culprit of my problems, or the vaccine itself, or a combination of two if all of my tests now have come back without any markers or anything. At this point, my only assumption is determining what’s causing everything, and that’s the only thing that I could think of logically. And the thing is that I’ve had doctors also tell me that 100% it could be that because they’ve seen it first-hand and at this point it’s just a waiting game and I really hope now, how long I’ve waited—the permanent damage that my body has either taken or has, and it is just so scary to think of. I know that my life will never be the same again after this. It’s just too much to think about, and I’m trying hard not to, in the passing days, which is easier said than done, obviously. But it’s been something so insurmountably unexplainable.
The doctors I’ve had look at me like they’re completely scratching their heads, clueless and then I get sent to other doctors and passed around like a piece of meat or passed around like an Olympic baton in a relay race. It’s like, ‘Well, I don’t know what’s going on with you exactly. I’ve looked over your medical history, I see the symptoms that you’re going through, I see everything. It’s very real 100% possibility it could be the covid vaccine. I’ve seen other people with similar scenarios like you.” I’ve been told, “And here’s another doctor. Go give them a call and see if they can help you. I have no clue what to do, man.”
And then the thing is that when I recommend such simple tests, whether a vision test, an MRI with angiography to map the blood vessels – have been shut down. It’s like I need to fight the doctors to get these tests done. That’s what it feels like. It feels like I need to just literally put my foot down and fight the doctors to get these tests done because I’ve had a doctor recently recommend to me an MRI with contrast, which is the gadolinium contrast and at this point in time I was very hesitant to put another toxic metal into my body which is gadolinium. Most radiologists say that it’s perfectly fine going through your bloodstream or your body and then it gets naturally detoxed out through your kidneys right and you’re perfectly fine – nothing to worry about – but then if you look at other documentation of gadolinium contrast and MRIs, you start to see the long-term effects from MRI contrasts and CT contrasts, whether you’re healthy or not. It doesn’t matter. I believe no heavy metal belongs in the body honestly from my logical and my scientific standpoint – that I would rather not get a heavy metal injected into my bloodstream and go through my tissues. At what cost, right? Sure, I have the images that are amazing right – my brain, my spine and whatever body parts they take right after, with the contrast in my system. It’s like I sure have the amazing images but it’s like what if they find nothing as well too but I don’t know obviously because I haven’t done it so I wouldn’t know. But, say they do find the cause of my problem, right? The tradeoff of me getting exposed to the gadolinium and in my case, because I did some research, if the body is in a state of inflammation as well, if the blood vessels are already inflamed, the gadolinium can seep out from the smaller blood vessels into tissues and into the brain and deposit, which is called gadolinium deposition, and there’s a couple of things as well, there are many cases which you can look up for yourselves guys. So many radiologists also being against gadolinium, saying they have no clue the exact effects of gadolinium.
So, at this point, I just don’t trust anything. I already put something in my body that I shouldn’t have. It’s like for me again to trust the medical system, for me to put something in my body now again, I have a bad gut feeling now and it’s just no. After what happened in hospital too the first time with the contrast, I was like ‘no.’ There are alternatives. I know there are alternatives. I told the doctor and he’s like ‘Nope, I still recommend my first choice procedure,’ and that was it. I left it at that. And I just didn’t respond back after. I was just like, after multiple times telling him I wanted to get it without the contrast, cause there’s multiple other procedures literally that can map blood vessels without the use of contrast, and it’s like these doctors push the contrasts for MR patients and it’s like I know I get that the contrast gives you the best image quality and the best outcomes because it really does map amazing images, right? But at what cost? And now for my trust in the medical system of me pumping a heavy metal in my bloodstream, I was like, f*ck that man. I’d rather right now be tolerable with the problems I have and wait till I go see the other doctor within a month and a half and see what they recommend, and I’m going to see my rheumatologist in about a month as well. Before I go and see the other doctor, I have to gather all of my medical history once again to bring to the main doctor that I’m seeing, which is the infectious disease doctor at NYU.
That’s pretty much my whole ordeal with post-Covid or post-vaccine struggle that I’ve been dealing with, guys and I’ve kind of kept it hidden. And that’s probably why I haven’t posted much on my YouTube as well. From the past couple of videos that I’ve done pretty well, and I was very blessed to have the amount of support that I had on my YouTube channel, I just haven’t been able to content create which I wanted to do on my YouTube channel because this has been hindering my everyday life now and my work ethic as well.
My overall wellbeing has been deteriorating throughout this whole ordeal and I hope this video really sheds light for people that have been dealing with this and have been really shunned by the medical system. The thing is to get down to the point of what I have is my ultimate goal at this point because I really want to know what is going on with me and how I can treat it but the thing is – but getting a doctor to do that for you is like finding a needle in the haystack because of the stories I’ve seen of other people going through the same thing – it’s almost word for word – the same thing – the doctors have no clue what it is.
The doctors have done tests. Things come back normal. And then there are the other cases where people have severe life-threatening issues, God forbid, post-vaccine. The brain fog, the other horrible neurological problems where they were having extreme brain problems, blood clots in the brain. And I’m just blessed that I’ve been able for four years to stay almost, as I describe it, as my battery percentage right now is at 65% to 70% of capacity. And then I always think to myself, there’s people worse with worse problems that I’ve had. And at the end of the day now, I’m just waiting to get an outcome and a solution to the problem I’ve been dealing with. And I hope that everyone out there understands that you’re not crazy, you’re not stupid, you’re not psychotic. 100% this is real.
There are too many cases of it now and the doctors that I’ve been seeing are non-stop talking about it openly to me as well and I’ve had doctors tell me that it’s 100% possible with the stuff that they’ve been seeing with similar cases. I will probably make some update videos down the road after I go see these doctors, hopefully with some answers, and you guys hopefully take care of yourselves. Hopefully, as I said, I will have some answers and it will all be uphill again once again, and I get my life back on track because it’s just been a journey with everything. And thank you, guys. I’ll be back with some update videos about my health. And you guys take care of yourselves. Peace.